2019 changed me, it was a year of hurt, personal growth, success and true friends. It started sad and unsure, and finished full of promise and hope. I cannot wait to begin a new year, because it can only get better as I see the many blessings on the horizon.
I began the year changing jobs, I left the travel agency I was with for 7 years because I felt as if I wasn’t growing, or appreciated there. It was a great place to start my career but it just wasn’t right anymore. I signed a new contract and began with MEI-Travel. It was the best decision I ever made, I am doing better than I have in a long time. I think 2020 will be amazing as my business is really booming these days. I do still work at the school twice a week, it’s nice to get out of the house and talk to people. Working from home can get lonely. Single parenting is hard ya’ll especially on the wallet, but I can do it, I mean I have for two years so no stopping me now.
My blog slowed down a bit, mainly because press trip availability was more difficult for me this year. I had an amazing partnership with Hershey Entertainment and Resorts. Who doesn’t love candy and coasters? I was able to go on the inaugural of the NCL ENCORE and loved that time away, it was a nice restart for me. This year, We Grow Retreat, took me to Disney and I was able to bring the girls, thanks to my Fairy Godmother. I didn’t travel nearly as much as past years, but 2020 has a better outlook for that!
I was blessed abundantly by this little community I live in, if I needed groceries they helped, if I needed my grass cut my neighbor did it. If you don’t live in a small town, you really won’t get how amazing where I live is. I wouldn’t trade the tractors and corn fields for anything. It’s a slow down kinda life, it’s a watch the sunset over the hay fields in the summer life, it’s a washing the cows and picking fresh vegetables life. It’s a place where friends are family, and you never need an invite to come over. I will do whatever is necessary to stay here.
Ultimately in order to come back from my personal tragedy I had to file bankruptcy. It was something I felt ashamed of for awhile, now I know that it is freeing, and will allow me to start over. There is no shame in starting over, especially if you have to do it by no fault of your own. I didn’t choose this path, it was chosen for me by someone else’s choices.
Let me be real, my depression and anxiety took hold of me in 2019. Some days it crippled me, and I couldn’t get out of bed unless I had to. My kids never saw that, I never let them. I got counseling, got my anti-anxiety meds right and took control of my life. It wasn’t going to take me out, no way was that happening. For those that suffer from depression and anxiety, there is no shame in getting help. It is the best thing you will ever do for your mental health. If you need to talk, please reach out. Just don’t do it alone, I am here for you.
Loss is hard to process, especially sudden loss. Factor in many other things with that loss, and it was two years of counseling, being loved on and helped by family and friends. They sprinkled me in love, prayers and planted seeds that allowed me to blossom! You never appreciate others until you are in the darkest places, because they bring the light into your lives.
I am so ready for a new decade, and a new season in my life. Be sure to follow along.